New life

Everyone has to go through these things in life. It's actually just my second time but this one, I am all alone. Yeah, some people can help me but I can develop myself starting from now on.

Have a lot to learn.

A lot to cook.

A lot to earn.

A lot to fix.

and etc...

All those stuff that I haven't done when I was there, now I can do it with my bear hands. It's not about bragging everything in a swipe but, who knows what can happen next. Whether you like it or all of a sudden, you just have to do it carefully than a grand scheme that turns out to be nothing.

Better Die Trying than to be Ignorant

Depressive as I am, i want to live my life, according to my principles regardless of my family or my status in society. Why can't i be happy if i only desire what is right and what is love? 

When people say it's me, they think i am weird or something and that's what they think of me. I can't do anything with that because it's their perception of me. Anyways, it's better to try than doing nothing. I will die than being ignorant all the way. If i have a personal battle against apathy, then be it. Death is part of life but if you know you don't do anything bad, then go for it.

God gives you challenges to overcome eventually. Sometimes we think he doesn't take action or he is sleeping on us. But despite it, we still have to pray for guidance and strength because we, humans will do the talking often, God is there because he will not let us down all the way.

Are you taught to hate someone?

Why people hate one another? Because of race? Because they want money or religious membership to increase? I am not confused but just wants to remind everyone. Right now, i am suffering from perceived hatred by my countrymen on me, for choosing an "ugly" girl for them but a girl that desires only love and acceptance. Where can you find that girl that gives up herself to the only man that will see her efforts for him?

In this world, i say NO. Why no? Because people these days want to get rich and yet they are stuck to the paradigm to step on someone's desire of what life they want.

Maybe, education plays a role and also, upbringing. I didn't hate because of face. I hate because of wrong political stance or those who want bloodshed only. My desire to love more is somehow a result of warchig some heartwarming videso in the internet and one anime that shows how to love and accept no matter what problems would happen.

Problems like these occur because of selfishness. Only selfish people will choose to get famous or rich by stepping on someone's dream, which is damning because they only take what would benefit them.

Unless the world sees my fate, this cycle of hatred will continue.