Nothing is left

Writing blogs from the Ukrainian conflict to the ISIS, I enjoyed writing since it's my inner talent. But with that said, is it worth I live only for this? Can't I have a better personal life? All I hope is a happy family but still, I don't even get signs from God not even one. Last week had been one of the most difficult parts in my life. I cried a lot and never got the love I am expecting from her. Even at work I almost cried, due to the pressure of lending her money but at the expense of not getting appreciated or love because of her multiple excuses she doesn't want to talk to.

Threatening to commit suicide if I don't give money or leaving me if I mail her too much, it's so depressing that she ignored my feelings. If I attempt to talk with her, she would make foolish excuses that she is tired and wants a breakup if I mail her aside from evenings, which I feel she never tells something to me.

Selfish and stubborn girl as she is, if she knows I am just waiting for her to love me unconditionally. I never told her she's selfish but she tells me regardless of how good my intentions are. I feel worthless and a lot of times, fighting the thought of suicide just to die naturally or from depression. I am hoping that God never takes her away from me because I am praying every single night so that I can reunite with her.

I still have tears on my eyes and is waiting for a friend to have a heart to heart talk with me to burst into tears once I tell how I am suffering emotionally while she never thought I am, citing a busy schedule as a blatant excuse.

Nothing is left in me if she leaves me or kills herself.........

American Foreign Policy a mere Excuse

The habit of American Foreign policy to invade so called socialist countries is just a mere excuse to get what bounty they want. For example, the Bay of Pigs invasion, Overthrown of Salvador Allende Gossens, Breakup of Communism, invasion of destruction of Yugoslavia, trying to give Boris Yeltsin more support and others.

Fast forward, the US led invasion of Iraq and the support of Arab spring. Oh wait, the Arab spring is not an Arab nationalism but a foreign backed intrusion, paving the way for extremism and religious fundamentalism in the region.

The former Yugoslav states would join the European Union, with the staunch exception of Milorad Dodik and Republika Srpska. By bombing Serbia, Bill Clinton got Monica Lewinsky out of the picture and being hailed as a hero by Kosovo Albanian terrorists and the brainwashed masses while in Serbia, America funded the pro-Western movement, notably by Vojislav Koštunica and making sure the "evil" Slobo would be toppled and sent to the Hague. Slobo was evil internally but did no threats to America not its allies which is mind bobbling.

The Yeltsin experiment was a total failure and the Russian people chose former KGB or Soviet era people(of course they ate not anymore commies) fot the stability of their country. Only in Russia, America failed. 

Of course there are still social democracies in Europe or at least, political parties that America wants to control to make an excuse to promote forced democracy or unfair capitalism. The habit of it is always an excuse. I dare now Barrack Hussein Obama to invade North Korea. If he does not, it is an excuse because it would be a nuclear war not just with the evil regime but also with China. That would be the war of the devils because they are the true evils of society and not Russia nor Chile nor the former Yugoslav republics.