My hardwork will pay off!

God gives us blessings, during times we don't expect. Well, I am not waiting for it, but works hard every single day and every month, saves money. Why saving money? Of course, I am already planning for a happy family. I am happy that I can work to the zenith of my capabilities.

Men has to work hard, of course! I thank God every single day through my prayers because I am having a healthy body, I eat well, I am having a balanced body and that I have a beautiful and kind-hearted woman than will be my future.

I still have issues but, I am more prepared to go through it than before. Not just financially, but emotionally. It's been two years since I was on shackles. Now, everything will be piece of cake, if I continue to keep my guard and never, ever be complacent.

Looking forward for the next few months, and hopefully a wedding, all are firing in cylinders. Never depend on others forever,  be patient and work hard for it!

Because of you

Whether or not a part in my life was disaster or full of failures, I made this far in a happy life. I credit my girlfriend for becoming the light in my life, and the one I'll build and give my very future with. It's not an easy thing to say these things when there are still a lot of challenges to come, but it's safe to tell everyone that I am happy, blessed and powerful with you.

Happy-Because of course, through the best and challenging times we are on a relationship, at the end of the day, I made you smile and you made me smile and laugh as well. It's true happiness.

Blessed-I believe she was fated to meet me that day, and ever since I pray to God that loving her is my promise. Meeting her inside a church was one of the biggest blessings I received and will protect.

Powerful-She realizes my potential, regardless of what I lack. My blog, Facebook live streams, posts and YouTube videos, she appreciates what little or big I do. That's when I'm brimming with confidence and power

To the day comes we will be together happily, I know that we are meant for each other. Age doesn't matter, nor where we came from. What matters is we love each other and it's God's will. Because of you, I am happy, blessed and powerful!

Older Women owns Younger women

Taking time off from politics, it's such a blessing for having a sweet, loving and God-fearing girlfriend. I don't care if the age gap is way beyond my age but the important is mutual understanding and it's God's will.

Why Older Women rocks? I may elaborate some points, be prepared to fill your diaries.

1. They cook better
2. They love better
3. They tend to be honest
4. They are better when it's "time"
5. They have a better understanding of life
6. They never mess everything

My advice for people facing criticisms like what I have:

Continue to love not because of the girl's social standing or her beautiful body but because she is an ideal wife and that, she will never leave your side through the joys and pains of a beautiful relationship like this.

Protecting Love

How many times I fell or tried to get back into life. I want to live because of love and    the future that is for me. I may need to do much bigger things because if I won't, everything will be lost. All I am praying and hoping is that with my princess, I will have a happy family.

Happy family, it's not impossible actually. All I need is to focus on my Japanese and finally have my body to full strength as well. I am also depending on God's guidance so that I can make the best decisions, making it possible to experience true happiness. 

I will also protect her from the criticisms everyone throw at her or at me. I won't be scared to protect her because I love her. It's something I won't back down. I will fight for a better future with her even if it costs me some of my family members/friends' support for me. It's a sacrifice as well because I will start a new life with my future wife. A future of true happiness and sacrifices.

One day, it will happen and a wedding blessed by God through the priest and with everyone witnessing.

Protecting her

Recently, I received a lot of criticisms not from my harshest internet critics or haters but from my own circle of friends for the my choice of relationship. It's just an age gap and she is mature, kind, sweet and understanding unlike all my previous relationships. I still have a long way to go and a lot can change but the days pass, the more I am willing to give up everything for her happiness than to do nothing and go down further again.

I don't have an idea why some of my closest friends(online or in actual) criticized me and told me to give up because of the wide age gap between me and her. It really disappoints me when they harshly criticize her and my choice. It's just a simple choice yet, the choice I won't regret because I feel God gave me her.

OK, I met her in a church in Osaka and ever since, I had been sending messages to her and she sends me wonderful emoticons as well as sweet and kind words, which I slowly developed my feelings for her.

Ever since I got criticisms from some of my circle of friends, I got more protective of her and as well from my parents. I need to prove myself as a man than as a kid like how my entire family(except for one of my older sister) than to sit down and give up. Giving up is not me. Going through the pain is what I am known for, and for the happiness of my princess, I will protect with and show her a man I am.

Love, love, love

Having an unforgettable date last Sunday, it will be my starting point with her. I am starting to know her but still have a lot of progress. Hopefully, it will lead to what I dreamed of:

1. Happy Family
2. A Family that goes to church every Sunday and prays at home.
3. Having kids.
4. Working and earning.
5. Growing old with each other.

It's not impossible because now, I am feeling she is really for me.  I don't mind if she's older than me or the language barrier(I am learning more Japanese words with her) but the feelings for each other. All my hope is that to make her feelings burst more when I am with her since she is knowing how I show my love to her.

Some people criticize me for my choice but it's God's will for me, that's why I will cherish every single second, minute, hour, days, years and eternity with her. I truly love her, my beautiful princess.

True Love is not easy but not impossible

Yeah, I am daydreaming all the time at work. I can't focus myself on politics or religious issues because I am in love.(Laughs). She's like a princess to me regardless of the age gap she and I are into. And she attends divine liturgies, the very woman I am praying for to God.

Of course, true love is not easy to achieve but, not impossible because there's a mutual understanding between you and the person. It's not easy because there's a lot of options. We don't know if one of them is your true soulmate or just another lessons learned. But it's not impossible because it happens all the time.

Maybe we fall often or rarely but very depressing but, people come into our life to teach us a lesson we need to learn. Life is not easy but we can find love through it all with wonderful hearts joining as one. I hope it happens to me again. I feel my soulmate is just there.

How can you know your soulmate?

I have been asking a lot of people what's the purpose of believing in having a soulmate. I don't know if that soulmate thing will happen to me as well. If I would ask people about this case:

"What if your in a situation when you have a girlfriend/boyfriend and you met someone you feel he/she is meant for you?"

It is hypothetical but I am too curious since there's an alarming rate of these cases unlike during the past when there's no soulmate thing too often. If I have that relationship, would it be easy to let go and choose that person? There's another situation, if the woman who came to your life as your "soulmate" is of the same faith. Would it be a reason to chooser her than the current one?

If that would come to me, what shall be my action?

Will I become a Bachelor Forever?

The things I can be successful is my spiritual life, writing things on this blog about my crusade against political correctness, cooking dishes, learning how to earn and everything. But there is something I could end up and it is one of the things I am scared: being single forever.

The reason why I am scared is, I don't have someone to pass my genes and a partner in life I can be with. That's haunting me despite my hopes for the better future.

After being kicked out, losing my baby, being swindled and everything, I change. I did. Bad things can change a person either for good or bad. That's life. The thing is, would not expecting in return be the best way that my perfect match will come to me? I am scared these days that I don't have someone to depend and love to. It's something that kills me despite my continuing spiritual advance and my fight for the future.

The Hardest thing-move on

This could be painful for me but since she left me for the third time, I must move away completely. She caused a lot of pain for me. I deserve now to enjoy my short life here on earth. I sacrificed too much on a dead promise. I thought I can come back with her but she keeps on pushing me away.

It hurts to know always about the memory of my little angel. I know if he's up there, he can see how I will slowly change and evolve by myself with the emotional help of my friends..I am through with girls who care about MONEY only. What do you think guys? This could be the greatest opportunity I can slowly earn to go in Serbia in the future and find myself by working harder here.

They say, despite darker days, there is the light. I believe in that. I just wish now I can win even in a small amount in lotto because I need to pay a lot of bills...

After this month and if I pay the unpaid bills on a hurry, I can go out with my friends, especially my best friend to drink more and more. Maybe during this time, I may start to earn for living my life alone. And finally, God's grace I can feel more and more.

I hope people will help me emotionally all the way and in the memory of my little angel...