Because of you

Whether or not a part in my life was disaster or full of failures, I made this far in a happy life. I credit my girlfriend for becoming the light in my life, and the one I'll build and give my very future with. It's not an easy thing to say these things when there are still a lot of challenges to come, but it's safe to tell everyone that I am happy, blessed and powerful with you.

Happy-Because of course, through the best and challenging times we are on a relationship, at the end of the day, I made you smile and you made me smile and laugh as well. It's true happiness.

Blessed-I believe she was fated to meet me that day, and ever since I pray to God that loving her is my promise. Meeting her inside a church was one of the biggest blessings I received and will protect.

Powerful-She realizes my potential, regardless of what I lack. My blog, Facebook live streams, posts and YouTube videos, she appreciates what little or big I do. That's when I'm brimming with confidence and power

To the day comes we will be together happily, I know that we are meant for each other. Age doesn't matter, nor where we came from. What matters is we love each other and it's God's will. Because of you, I am happy, blessed and powerful!

Protecting Love

How many times I fell or tried to get back into life. I want to live because of love and    the future that is for me. I may need to do much bigger things because if I won't, everything will be lost. All I am praying and hoping is that with my princess, I will have a happy family.

Happy family, it's not impossible actually. All I need is to focus on my Japanese and finally have my body to full strength as well. I am also depending on God's guidance so that I can make the best decisions, making it possible to experience true happiness. 

I will also protect her from the criticisms everyone throw at her or at me. I won't be scared to protect her because I love her. It's something I won't back down. I will fight for a better future with her even if it costs me some of my family members/friends' support for me. It's a sacrifice as well because I will start a new life with my future wife. A future of true happiness and sacrifices.

One day, it will happen and a wedding blessed by God through the priest and with everyone witnessing.

I am in LOVE

Instead of focusing on politics or religion or sports or whatever topic I need to write, instead I am writing how I am falling in love and it's no secret I am more falling for the right woman.

In fact, I am flooding my facebook posts with I love you in 4 languages I can write(English, Filipino, Japanese and Serbian). That's how I am feeling now. Love does inspire me to go beyond my powers or what I can do best. Constant daydreming and smiling, I am inspired whenever I see her mails encouraging me to give my very best at work, church, life and with her.

I am thankful I met her because I feel God gave me her and it's no coincidence. Her sweet words, kind heart and beautiful smile is enough to make my heart filled with fire, the fire because of love. Whenever she sends me very sweet and kind mails, I become a dragon breathing with fire, powered by love and hope.

Ever since she became my girlfriend, I vowed that I will not just do it by words but by actions. I truly love her and will protect her heart no matter what happens!

I love you
愛してるよ
Mahal Kita
Ljubav ti/Volim te-Љубав Ти/Волим те

I want to have a vacation in SRBIJA!!

I am still planning for my dream vacation, now that I am free of almost any impurity of being scared to say what I desire. I know, it may take up to two years or it depends because I have a lot to pay. In a perfect world, I could not have to deal with it totally. Nuff said.

With my pursuit of that, I am thinking of the best way to remove all the stress in my life, once I stepped on Serbian soil. There are a lot of things I would do, and hopefully I can accomplish.

Going to various churches and monasteries is my primary reason. To relax, have time with God more and have some cross or icons of the saints.

Buy a Serbian medieval costume and the flag of Serbia, so I can display it on my house and some t-shirts reading "Kosovo je Srbija!" would be great for me.

Go to historic places and try to speak some Srpski to the natives with the aid of the dictionary.

And maybe, find my dreamgirl there although it seems impossible that I can find it there.

With all said, would I make it?

Is it worth the second chance?

I can't think so much of a better thing. The thing is, I gave her that second chance. Is it worth it? What if she squanders it again and breaks the promise again? My best friend recently told me that the girl is one big fool because I fought for her and everything and she broke everything and now, wants that second chance...

Could I be wrong?

I may have been a fool but giving her a chance is worth it, since I am too soft to go away from her. She is my weakness because the person I loved, no matter how evil she is, is the one girl i desire because of love and not because to correct her or because I feel sorry to her but I truly love her.

If you would be in my situation, what would you do? Would you give her that second chance or just move on completely?

This is CONFUSING

I thought it was the right time to move on. I thought she would not mail and apologize to me. I thought everything was OVER. And then out of nowhere, she mailed me and my whole life became more confused because i wasn't prepared for this.

Confusing is the fact that she mailed me a lot of times goodbye and other hurtful things.

Is it really that easy to forgive? I admit i have feelings for her but i cannot forgive that she aborted the baby. It is just i have this feeling that no woman wants to have a relationship with me and i have this feeling of she is my soulmate no matter what happens today, sounds confusing?

See, I am a guy that is week in women or in true sincerity. I may have to see if she is very sincere now because it is hard to instill values on someone's prideful head this and that without forcing the person to do it. It's hard and i will not force anything unlike before.

When she apologized, it was like sincere and she even sent me a picture of me and her. And she missed my body, since she feels it is very warm and she feels love everytime I am near her.

It makes me think that Love moves in a mysterious way. Or God has some plans for me and her more than what happened in the past few months.

Nada za budućnost

Having no regrets even if there is still a long way to go, i am hoping for a much better thing to happen. I will not let things slip anymore because i made a promise to God. That is, show everyone what true love and reject any means of hatred. I am very happy that i met her. I am happy she is willing to sacrifice for me too because i am sacrificing more for my future and not just for the present times. I will never forsake things now because every moment counts and every tears will be converted to smiles, an honest smile.

Despite the impure generation's insincerities, i am willing to go through the pains set for me. This is because no one will be a better person without pain and tears. I am dependent so much all my life but i will not go astray from my path but no matter how far it would be, i will love her so much because this is my future and happiness.

Thou shall not choose thy want alone.

Why people these days are having a relationship for want and not need? Most people are too selfish and not thinking of a happy family. Is it all money that people think as their God?!!? I simply hate the way this generation is thinking. Becoming gold-diggers for personal gain and not having a happy family.

The reason i chose that girl is because not she is Japanese and can give me that Visa i am seeking but because she gave me a new reason to live. A love that encompasses everything within sight. A love that no one will do because of her appearance. A love that God will give as a test and as a vow itself. Can't most people choose what love truly is? I haven't finished college yet but i was educated in the way Christians have, that is why i have taken it by heart.

Not all people have good intentions but all i want is that people will see what good intentions are truly taught us and why we should take it by heart.

Ljubav je Veliki

I am slowly learning that love is one powerful recipe for people that will give their very best no matter what. Let's not lie about it. Whether in four languages or different phrases, 大すき, Ljubav, Pag Ibig or Love, it is the same in meaning and in thought. Actually, what we could learn from true love is not just sending gifts, paying luxurious dinner dates, finding time and some physical intimacy but, what is truly in essence like, simple hugs, kisses, loyalty, honesty and any essential things that would make your partner feel love than any other time or place.

For me, one powerful kind of love is what i desire every single time i am with the special woman of my life. Simple hug and simple kiss will make me powerful enough to be motivated and give my very best at work. I also prayed to God that the woman i brought to the church i am praying for forgiveness and emotional strength will be that same woman i will marry and have this happy family i desire.

How about others? How did they found their eternal love? Is it like how i desired? Sometimes, i look up to those people that loved so much and have their own happy family. Even if i am praying and hoping, i know it will come true because God knows how i love my girl now. I trust her so much and her love is what i desire.

There is one saying: "Love is blind", it is but for me, love is powerful. As it has the gravity to inspire and motivate couples to go further than what they can. Literally speaking, love is a powerful word that it sums up one person's inspiration and their loved one's future.

Ljubav-Love-すき-Pag Ibig

Why love is important? Many answers differ but i have my own as well. If this answer is for you, you may agree with me as well. Love is unconditional. Yes, that's my answer. I have said this a lot to my peers and past relationships but it is who i am truly. I won't even lie to a woman i truly love but be much more of an honest man. I maybe crazy when it comes to love but i am innocent and never commit such bad things by most men these days like lying, cheating and more.

Love is, however, an acceptance of what any imperfections or bad past a man/woman has in order to attain true love. No love can be attained by perfections. Rather, seeing each others' weakness is the best way to attain it. Helping each other, taking care, filling the gaps, and most especially, loving more and more without the sins of other people.

I don't really mind the looks or where the woman came from as long a God gave me her and to show her how i love a woman despite everything i lack or some things that she wants that i can't give. I hope some people have that mentality i grew with, thanks to my upbringing and my willingness to do more good than bad. People make mistakes but i strive harder and harder because every human deserves to be loved and cared for. I believe in that and would love more than remember my darkest past relationships.

True love can lead to a successful future family because all good things were made by love. Of course, love is blind but love is unconditional If you want to know what love is, start now and look for someone that will lead you to true love in your future. God knows that when a good person loves, he/she will be blessed by a powerful yet, simple description of love.

Why i always love older women

From the movie "Summer of 42"

This could be my embarrassing post ever. Well, i won' even lie to people because liers go to hell. I never fall in love until i was like 9 or 13. It was a vague story even to me because i have too many things to think these days than most of my colorful past.

All i can mention is that when i was 9, i saw this Math Teacher. She was the most beautiful woman i ever saw. No pun intended because i was still a kid back then. I was too innocent. Then came another teacher when i was 13. It made my whole life crazy ever since. I fell in love with another math teacher but this time, married. Whoa. I gave her some secret letters and this, i don't know what are they and the school called my mom secretly. When i came home one day, she was crying and she told me not to talk to her. Hey, i did and i was ashamed. Although one year later at an academic competition i am representing for the History subject i am part of, i saw her on a window and bid me goodluck. I was like, blushing since i never talked to her since those incident.

I choose older women because i felt they are mature, sweet, passionate and loyal. And when she made love with me, i will give my very best to make her my baby and to make her feel i am old enough to be a man and not younger than her.

Ever since, i had my first girlfriend during my final year in my High School, she was 5 years older than me although it lasted a month. My next one is during the same year, 8 years older than me but she broke up with me by pretending to love me and show i am just a friend to her in just 5 months! I almost committed suicide after because of the heart brake she caused my young heart. She was the girl i gifted a lingerie set. I was 16 and under aged but wanted to marry her and have kids with her one day. I had another girlfriend, a single mom but exchanged me for a tomboy. My next one is 4 years older than me, who kissed me much better than my 2nd ex but when my dad discovered i am not Catholic(i am in Japan and she was back in my homeland), she sacrificed it to save me from my dad. I will have my 5th but i chose to break up because of her attitude of breaking me up, deleting or any means of hurting my feelings.

As of now, i am happy with although missing my girl. I don't want to lose her just because of any circumstances. When i love, it means i will give my very best for her even if i will suffer some injuries or emotional breakdowns, i will fight and she is motivation. I hoped one day, she will be the girl i will introduce to God at the altar and i will kiss, hug and have babies with. Love is blind, even if she is older than me by a year, i don't mind because i love unconditionally.

Šta Ljubavi znači mene

My love is always there, reading every day in these verses, couple, what your heart always write and leave you a gift.

What is love for me? Why i fall in love so much? Why all the fuzz about love? Well, love has many meanings for people around us. For some, love is blind, love is love, love is exciting. But for me, love is the grace of God that was given to us because of what we should instill to everyone's hearts. Nothing short of things i want to tell but, each of us can love or make love or teach true love without making a sin.

How i would do love when i am given an opportunity? Of course, a man/woman who would be given opportunity should seize the chance since love is unconditionally given once in a while. And i will cherish that moment with her.

It hurts a lot when people use love for themselves or to gain something that is bad to someone that has good morale character. How i wish those people who think love is not precious should read this.

When it comes to love, it may not be learned from anyone but gained through experience, education and one's desire to feel/make true and honest love. That's on my mind actually and what we should do. When it comes to love, let's be serious and not play a joke!