How to keep a promise?

In this generation that never knew that God is watching our every move, some opportunistic people breaks promises and breaks, breaks and breaks. I have the answer why they do it, especially my fellow men:

Because most stupid men think that womanizing is manly. I saw a lot of men leaving their respective girlfriends, even the richest or loyal or loving women they are. See, I am an open minded man. I see both sides. Ok, let's get into the title.

How do I keep my promises for my girl? Simple.

1. Make sure she feels your love near and even if we are far from each other.
2. Never, EVER mail or flirt with other women.
3. Always tell her "I love you", and do it even if she doesn't look.
4. Be honest.

If a man will ask me it's hard not to be a womanizer, I'll just tell him to pray for patience. Men, even me are not patient by nature. But it doesn't mean we won't keep our promises! Nothing is impossible.

Why I am loyal to one woman

Talking with my girl and only princess every single day since meeting her last May 2016, it has been one of the best parts of my life and I thank God every single day for giving me such a God-fearing, beautiful and kind-hearted woman like her. I am happy too that she sees my efforts for that bright future I pray. Having said all that, I want to make a point on why I am loyal to one woman.

It's the most simple thing to do but for most men, hard. Why? They think that by going for a lot of girls and having relationships with them without realizing the consequences of their stupidity, they will put their image on the shame list. It is also to depict them as an Alpha Male. Well, that's the sign of the Beta Male.

For me, I don't need excess, I don't need multiple options. While praying to God that hopefully that day will come even now, I am eager to wait for it, as long as it will be with her. Also, the promises me and her told each other. It's something I love and never forget to do. The more days come and the relationship grows stronger, the more it will be that part in me I am waiting for all my life: A Blessed and Happy Family.

I cannot break my promise!

Talking with a friend about these things, I remembered my promise. It's kind of disappointing for some of my friends I am still hoping for something on her but it's what my heart is saying. I can't forsake her even if she won't talk to me much. Promise is a promise.

I am giving my best for her since despite what she did to our baby and giving me the hardest time but she still comes back for me. What is it that she cannot forget me totally no matter how hard she wants? Is it my money but my assurance? If it is just money, then forget her once she does it. But if she believes in me all the way, then I will never give up.

If she only hears this, I will never break that promise I told her. I must not lose this time or else, I am undeserving of the love I am hoping for eventually.

How can I hope for a 1%?

A 1% hope is something I get, out of failures. I have to admit all the time, it's not my choice. I've got no choice. But with just a glimmer of hope I am asking from God, would he still give it to me?

About my father, I was told to approach him twice that I wanted to convert. I will try, but I know he wouldn't let me, out of preserving the family roots. I understand him and have to deal with fanaticism more fluidly. Fanaticism is my number one enemy when it comes to my faith. Let's say I love to be challenged. But dad doesn't. That's the case. Just hope he wouldn't see my bad side anymore because I am more open to him than before.

But what I am thinking more than that is my previous relationship. It seems to me she doesn't care about my problems. I am giving her every month the abortion fee remaining balance and some pocket money, just to show her I truly love her no matter how imperfect she is or how she won't admit that I am making my promises and she just can't because she is thinking too much of money.

Maybe, it is my approach when it is either my way or not, because it's still my life. Why is is that dad tells me I am effin selfish or my ex tells me to find another woman or break her up. What's wrong with them that I would downgrade them? It's not that I am downgrading dad or my ex but I am making a firm decision because this is my promise and I will never break it, all for what I owe to God and the brighter future I know I will grasp by myself with God's help.

You squandered AGAIN!!!

I had been fooled again by her. Maybe this time, I will never give her a chance. She just mailed me recently that she wanted a breakup. Breaking up? She is becoming more crazier than ever. If I have the power, I will make her go to a psychiatrist. She badly needs it.

Or is it the right to completely move on and forget her all the way? Maybe it is the only way she will know what I really mean to her and not her selfishness.

I don't know why this is happening to me. No matter how hard to give a woman so much love, they will just leave me on the air. Or is this a way God wants me to be a monk? If so, I will just wait till' I become much older. I still want to have a family and that is what I am praying to God now. If it is another girl, then be it. If I am really destined for her, what shall I do?

No matter what is happening on her, I will just have to be strong and maybe, move on altogether.

Is it worth the second chance?

I can't think so much of a better thing. The thing is, I gave her that second chance. Is it worth it? What if she squanders it again and breaks the promise again? My best friend recently told me that the girl is one big fool because I fought for her and everything and she broke everything and now, wants that second chance...

Could I be wrong?

I may have been a fool but giving her a chance is worth it, since I am too soft to go away from her. She is my weakness because the person I loved, no matter how evil she is, is the one girl i desire because of love and not because to correct her or because I feel sorry to her but I truly love her.

If you would be in my situation, what would you do? Would you give her that second chance or just move on completely?

Hoping for the best

Now, i am going through a lot of depression again. This could be one of the triggers that lead me to this kind of depression. It is because of one bad news i knew from a friend. But despite all of the news, i hope that day would still come and i would forget everything now.

How are promises kept? How do people keep it despite taking a lot of days, weeks, months and years before it happens? I am naive but i am giving to God everything now. My family doesn't know what i am going through now. But if God will make a way and a miracle will occur, i will hold her promise.

These days, a lot of people break their promise for a much better person or social standing. It is unfair because, there are a lot of good people that needs that importance and love. That is why there is hope! Without that hope, our dreams are completely nothing! Selfish people will do things like these but good people would hope for the best even in that 1% chance. 

Promises

I have been going through a lot these days. How are promises being kept or made an everlasting deed? I never had these promises kept by my ex lovers for they leave me crying and hanging alone. Which is why i almost lost loving those i truly care unless someone would love me regardless of my views or my standings in life.

My articles about love is useless when my personal life is a damn mess but there is one thing i truly hold now. The promise of someone i love despite the months i will not be able to communicate her, i still hope even for that 1% because 99% is nothing when it will not happen. I know God is challenging me to do better and not fall down because my goal is to give my very best for her. It is also to show God i am worthy of the promise she gave me and that promise and vow i made to God to love her more. The prayers are there, the dedication and the loyalty is there, i still hope for that future.

If she may read this, i hoped she will see through my dedication, work and prayers and not what others tell about me. A promise is a promise. I won't even want to destroy that because i am doing all i can to fight and survive in life as well. I maybe powerless now but when i grabbed that big opportunity, i will be much powerful than what i am today. Don't even try to give up because that is already breaking the promise you made for that person. No matter what the past of that person if you made one valiant promise, make it or else, you will be not worthy of love or that future you had hoped or desired!