Why I am loyal to one woman

Talking with my girl and only princess every single day since meeting her last May 2016, it has been one of the best parts of my life and I thank God every single day for giving me such a God-fearing, beautiful and kind-hearted woman like her. I am happy too that she sees my efforts for that bright future I pray. Having said all that, I want to make a point on why I am loyal to one woman.

It's the most simple thing to do but for most men, hard. Why? They think that by going for a lot of girls and having relationships with them without realizing the consequences of their stupidity, they will put their image on the shame list. It is also to depict them as an Alpha Male. Well, that's the sign of the Beta Male.

For me, I don't need excess, I don't need multiple options. While praying to God that hopefully that day will come even now, I am eager to wait for it, as long as it will be with her. Also, the promises me and her told each other. It's something I love and never forget to do. The more days come and the relationship grows stronger, the more it will be that part in me I am waiting for all my life: A Blessed and Happy Family.

Being Unhappy

What I am feeling for days....Being Unhappy. Well, it's nothing new for me. I had been on secret mood swing since having a complicated on/off relationship with that Japanese girl and some confidential Family problems even if I will focus more on two way problems with either mom and dad.

What would you do if you have this problem?

Being left out and then suddenly being attended by the very girl you love and left you a lot of times and here and there. As if she never needed me if it's not about money matters. I doubt her more and more because of her unstable mind. She will not mail me a lot and will not even consider what I truly feel. She is selfish than before.

And then here's mom and dad, AGAIN. Mom threatened me that is she discovers I still have a relationship with her, she will kick me out of their home no matter what. And dad is still Mr. Unacceptable when it comes to my faith, even if I told him I don't want a fight but unconditional reconciliation.

It's very hard for me these days, citing these events could cause another great depression for me. If I am not mentally unstable enough, maybe I could end up on a mental hospital. That is if I can't really hold on anymore. Every night, all I ask for God is a simple life and my dying wish alway.

Without that dying wish, I will never have a happy future. That is why God, give me a new lease on life and have my simple wish now. A happy family, my faith and unconditional reconciliation.

Making you girl BEAUTIFUL

Making your girl beautiful is very hard. Why? It is because regardless of beauty or not, she will feel "ugly" if unattended by their respective boyfriends.

Let's say that's a unique case of sensitivity or jealousy(if there is). 

For me, a young man having a pregnant gilrfriend, i always tell her to wear some showy dress. It doesn't mean to make her sexy so much but the level that your eyes will only see her as a beautiful girl especially when the couple are that young.

If some guys would have the same scenario like mine(young couple), i may recommend to make their girl wear some showy attires(miniskirt, short-shorts and others) or buy their girl with those set of attires to make them beautiful.

I just feel showing emotional love is not yet enough, because the level of jealousy is still there. Some women are not born beautiful but they can be, regardless of fashion or attitude as long as they have the right man with them.

Journey to Fatherhood

Yes, it is confirmed. I am still young but i will be a daddy. That is full time or part time as they say it now. I went with my girl now and this was a big sacrifice on my part. I will begin being a father from scratch, which is true. Every father even my dad had gone through it. But i am ready to face it all, because of my girl who is willing to go through with me all the way. People could tell me i am selfish for leaving my family behind but it is for their own sake, since every time i am there, dad or mom will open up controversy after controversy.

And God made a way for me to be here. It is just i carried three bags with my backpack and i went to the station and like, everyone is looking at me. Of course, i suffered in my own decisions. But for the good of my parents and taking care of my pregnant wife, i settled down with her.

The hospital stay in the future is tough, bills, etc, etc and etc. But with God's power, my hope for the future remains optimistic since i know deep down inside, all i want is to do good and not to harm.

My supposed birthday wishlists

As my birthday is coming near, all i wish above the wishlist i will mention is having a girlfriend that will be my future, love and what i will fight for. I am a bit sad and i felt my life is wasted for others all the time but if someone will give me back my hope, i will hope more.

I wish i can assemble a 1/100 like this, just like my Destiny Gundam.

Nirvash Neo. Where can i find this toy here in Japan? :(

My favorite UVERwworld Album. Contains some song i want to sing every time i step inside a Karaoke.

Someone from Srbija send me this one? Or any other versions?

A mini icon of Sveti Knez Lazar

A girlfriend although i hope it would be a Srpkinja. Which is why i am too tired to find but i am still wanting to find that woman that i will truly have kids with regardless if she is a Filipinka, Japanci or Srpkinja as long as she will lead me to God and the promised future i desire through the years.