A Future worth Sacrificing

As time passes by, I ponder on a future wedding I work, pray and hope for. Of course, life is much harder this generation than the previous ones. But I won't make politics on this article. It's just, having a family is very sacred and important. It provides happiness to all and an inspiration. So, does almost killing yourself at work to earn a lot or praying and going to church is necessary for that future?

I say, YES.

Despite the rising taxes and the hardships of being alone, I strive to make sure I won't be complacent when big-time money comes to me. I have to earn more, because a wedding is not just that word I can't say since it' a family show or for visa or money; but for the future with happiness and love. I've got to show my love for my girl, because she is my chosen future. Of course!

I am a man, and it's what a man must do and never forget!

I am in LOVE

Instead of focusing on politics or religion or sports or whatever topic I need to write, instead I am writing how I am falling in love and it's no secret I am more falling for the right woman.

In fact, I am flooding my facebook posts with I love you in 4 languages I can write(English, Filipino, Japanese and Serbian). That's how I am feeling now. Love does inspire me to go beyond my powers or what I can do best. Constant daydreming and smiling, I am inspired whenever I see her mails encouraging me to give my very best at work, church, life and with her.

I am thankful I met her because I feel God gave me her and it's no coincidence. Her sweet words, kind heart and beautiful smile is enough to make my heart filled with fire, the fire because of love. Whenever she sends me very sweet and kind mails, I become a dragon breathing with fire, powered by love and hope.

Ever since she became my girlfriend, I vowed that I will not just do it by words but by actions. I truly love her and will protect her heart no matter what happens!

I love you
愛してるよ
Mahal Kita
Ljubav ti/Volim te-Љубав Ти/Волим те

The future awaits

It's been fun being back to write a lot of articles and to let known my cause as well. It's exciting how I start to recover from the turbulence that I experienced but it's worth it. I just ponder a lot but I may learn not to overstress myself because life has a lot of challenges we may or not like. That's true indeed, that's why I am looking ahead for a brighter future.

The future for me is vague but I know I can do it since no one can stop my evolution. It may start once I am born again as a Christian or how I handle my secular life. 

What I felt when I was with my ex and my parents was like human jail because he other wants to force things while the other stops your supposed evolution. But because of bad things, good things can happen. You learn not to be buried from it as time goes by but don't forget where you came from since your descendants will ask the same thing over and over again either to your annoyance or joy.

My Body Breaking up

I am walking to the nearest station after using my bicycle as I felt something weird on my right knee. Some clues? Well I don't know for now. Maybe I have to work and work but since my lack of Japanese language hinders me from going to a Hospital, that stands out well.

I hope this are all false alarms because I have an eerie feeling that I am going to have a torn ACL(Acute Cruciate Ligament) because there are at times I feel there would be a pop on my right knee. 

Look. In the new generation does ACL's appear to be frequent. I don't even know why but most athletes before rarely got an ACL. Sounds fishy? Modern training facilities and team doctors would not be enough to prevent if it is an ACL. I have numbness on my legs when it is very cold and I unsuspectingly bent one of my legs and I woke up in sheer agony. Does that mean I am eligible for ACL?

I wish NO!! Because I have a future to build and I am not a sportsguy that earns millions. Hope not!!!

Nada za budućnost

Having no regrets even if there is still a long way to go, i am hoping for a much better thing to happen. I will not let things slip anymore because i made a promise to God. That is, show everyone what true love and reject any means of hatred. I am very happy that i met her. I am happy she is willing to sacrifice for me too because i am sacrificing more for my future and not just for the present times. I will never forsake things now because every moment counts and every tears will be converted to smiles, an honest smile.

Despite the impure generation's insincerities, i am willing to go through the pains set for me. This is because no one will be a better person without pain and tears. I am dependent so much all my life but i will not go astray from my path but no matter how far it would be, i will love her so much because this is my future and happiness.

Lives and Futures at stake

Children in Ukraine, Palestine, Iraq and the African nations are in danger not to have a bright future. Why? Because of stupid politicians and superpowers that feast upon each others' mistakes, so does some historical envy. If people only knew, we need a generation that almost every people are educated and works in decent to high standard of living for their own children. I grew up knowing a lot of conflicts and mishaps, speaking of 9/11, Afghan invasions, Iraq invasions and some minor until i saw the war on aggression against Srbija, Vietnam war, Soviet invasion of Afghanistan, People Power revolutiom failure in the Philippines and the failed Arab spring. 

Has these conflicts created a better condition for the children involved or witnessed these wars or conflicts of ethnicity, religion and economy?

I say NO! Nothing good happened but it created a paradigm for future conflicts. Why didn't politicians change all of these for the common good of all? Because of these same politicians, it created the restless lower class as ignorants! Making sure ignorant people will not care about politics or economy and live like it is part of life. Hell i don't care about it but i can't stand these group of people lambasting everything on their path just to be famous or rich.

If you would create an almost perfect society, why not destroy it from within to create it in order to rewrite everything from scratch and were people live in a utopia that is suited for every children that they don't have to see wars or conflicts and just focus for their studies and a desired beautiful future.

For the Future-Za Budućnosti-未来ために

What does the word future to each and everyone of us? Me, a lot. My dreams, my future family, my everything. I need to start realizing that dream or it will lose all of a sudden. My biggest failures now is just one fingertip away, far from success. But it doesn't mean i will shy away from risks of my own from some things i need. Someone will be that last ingredient if i have too. I am somehow naive but hungry for that dream because i failed a lot during my past years.

How about a future that i depend on my parents but i lack freedom to do what i need to do? Or i am devoid of my parents or family members but i would be accomplishing a much greater dream? Like in business, addition by subtraction?

Or, the future desired by the children of wars raging through the years or by lucky ones that have money and the brains but lack that freedom necessary to fulfill what they truly desire. It makes me feel sorry for those who were born in poor conditions but there is one saying, the future is bright for those who will fight for it. Now, i am fighting for the future i desire, it is just i am suppressed but once i am set free, i would take opportunity. Ok, i admit i am an opportunist but it is not that i wanted it, but because i need it.

You can control destiny because anything is possible since nothing is impossible. I may have to write this for people to realize that dream or else, they would be swallowed by others' insincerity.

Moja vera, moja familija, moja budućnosti

Despite writing some entries about religion, politics, culture and others, i haven't mentioned if my future is uncertain. One thing in my heart is for sure. I will be a good father someday, teach my children true Christian values, make passionate and true love with my last girlfriend and future wife(hope so) and uphold the virtues of what God taught me through priests and teachers.

I won't even hide i thank my teachers from the high school i went through. With all the joys and pains in my life, they instilled in me what i need to be. A survivor and upholding a true Christian within me despite my imperfectness and my sinfulness.

What i will learn through my next spiritual father when i get baptized to God's original church will mean everything in my continuing process of maturity. For now, i am still immature enough to stand for my faith and my future. Despite all the challenges i am having, i hoped to inspire others that have the similar case they also have. Because every life has a story to tell. When i become a Pravoslavac, i will take the name Lazar and everyone will mention Lazar, Lazara, Lazaru and any additives.

I hoped that one of my male sons will be named Srđan, the name of the Bosnian Serb hero named Srđan Aleksić who sacrificed his life for his Bosniak friend's life, like how i wanted to teach my children human compassion. And whether i will stay here in Japan or marry a Serb and become a naturalized Serbian citizen, i will accept what responsibility God will give me in the future.

Srpska žena Lepa i slatka :)

It's an open secret i like Serbian women. They are beautiful, strong, nationalistic and religious deep inside like their Greek counterparts. I don't know much aside from asking my facebook peers in Srbija about these women. I hoped to meet one and eventually, marry her if it is God's will. It is because i admire women who are that nationalistic and strong. Serbian women also mystifies me a lot, especially someone who sends some goodnight kisses(i am a bit shy) and wishes me well often.

When a friend of mine suggested that he could introduce me to some girls there, i know there is still hope i can marry someone from this beautiful and resilient country. Maybe, she can teach me Srpski more, bring me closer to God and the traditions of Srbija both religious and social life.

I don't know more but i wish to get closer to their traditions and culture since i have a Srpski heart more and more. Although i still have a Filipino heart and a Japanese outside appearance, it will be easy for me to learn the Srpski way of life than anyone. Maybe this is what is in cased for me.

Hope my wishes come true at least.

I admire also Greek women, Georgian, Romanian and Russian women. One faith through different traditions and a strong national identity. Which i want to instill on my future children who will bear the names of the saints i will name them. Hope everyone would know that, in any 99% uncertainty, there is that 1% that is still valuable.