The Filipino pesudo-nationalist page

Juan Nationalist, the pseudo-nationalistic Filipino page in Facebook. How I made this statement? The bashing I got a few weeks ago and their war-rhetoric statements with China. First and foremost, war with China is inevitable not because we will retake those islands that is in Filipino territory but Barack Hussein Obama's aggressive policies that will destroy not just both countries but America as we know it.

Before that, was the bashing I got. Being called a Russophile, pro-Putin(which I am certainly not, just agreeing on Syria), pro-China, pro-communist and leftist is so effed up! I made a comment beware of Hussein Obama and the globalists because they will give you aid but will make the interest higher until the Philippine debt will grow pointlessly. That said, I am a Serbophile, Putin-critic(because of his cult of personality), anti-commies, anti-China and anti-communist. But of course, Obama is a communist himself and a promoter of sodomy, which members of the page bashed me as a homophobic.

They say they love the Philippines and hates leftists but they themselves are liberals. I saw a comment that I am conspiracy theorist but it's not a conspiracy theorist. I know, it's a public law that Obama will dupe every ally on it's sphere of influence. That includes Japan, South Korea, Philippines and the EU. Shame on the pseudo-nationalists and they don't care if the Philippines becomes a slave to Obama's America. They care of retaking the islands even if it means my homeland will start a disastrous war it will never recover.

I am sorry to say this but they are the Filipino neo-conservatives or neocons that pretend to be conservative but would side with leftist liberals and promoters of sodom and slavery.

It's not that I hope to see the Philippines align itself with Russia but we can have an independent foreign policy and a much better economy with the Russians as a close ally. What those bashers told me, Russia is decaying and has outdated military but in fact, Russia has stockpiles of nuclear weapons, disciplined soldiers, Orthodox Christian faith and reviving economy unlike in America where Obama, John Kerry, Hillary Clinton, the Democratic Party and neo-cons destroy America from the inside and tries to spread forced democracy to all the world.

To those members of that page, stop promoting war even on Facebook just because the Philippines is an American puppet but don't let our country become rubble with America and China taking it all!

God willing

Such a blessing for me. It took me five years and I was able to put through everything despite my current issues. Regardless of those issues, one of my goals in life was met. November 7, 2015, I got baptized, taking the name Lazar, in honor of the Saint Prince of Serbia, who defended Serbia against the Ottoman Empire in Kosovo to the end. He lost his life and the Serbs lost but it delayed the Ottoman advance through another 50 years.

I was a bit nervous before my conversion but it went smoothly. I didn't expected it to be that smooth but it was worth the 5 years of patience. Now, I have a lot to do more. Being baptized in the Japanese Orthodox Church, this is one of the first step of my new life. I told myself, life starts at 23. I told myself since I live alone and going through a lot of challenges along the way. I know it is rough but with God's presence, nothing is impossible.

Finally, I am partaking with other people and the saints, in a holy liturgy that is passed down through generations, unchanged and firmly holding the teachings of the apostles that spread the Christian faith from the 1st Century AD to this day through the missionaries.

Keeping my faith intact

Keeping my faith intact is one of the most  difficult things that everyone thinks but that's nothing when you know it's a part of your life. We are not born here without a mission. That's what I know. And the thing is, God never gave up on us. It shows when no matter how down you are and your carrying a large cross on your shoulders, God will give you the keys to heaven once you realize everything is part of your training.

Hopefully for me, I will be born again maybe next month and after that, my start as a true believer of God's ancient faith will proceed. I may still sin or commit unexpected mistakes but God will never let me fall under Satan's traps because he loves me and I shall do my best to do what is right and just.

I have a long way to go but with God's grace and the people that gives me help financially and emotionally, I will never go with Satan's dark plans. The God I know is the trinitarian God and whom I know as the true and only Gof of Justice.

The Lord is my Strength

A challenging 2015 for me could end within months. I took hard lessons in life that could hit me again in the future. But one thing is important despite these. God is still with me and never took my life away.

I am starting to know what my mission is. I could be far from over and this is one of those initial phase I have to go through but this could be it. You don't have to say I need to get rich or I don't need a lot of restrictions in life. All you need to say is that God is merciful and he is the big reason we know what's justice coz our God is thw God of Justice as well.

While never forgetting to pray, I am starting to learn what discipline is. And despite a bleak future, I am ready to get past everything that comes to me because God will never give me a test I can't survive.

Loss of Faith, Loss of a Family

Recently, i am trying to decipher what it means to have a family or not. Not having a family is unhealthy. Though, the current trenda in the 21st Century means more people are into what they call handsome or beautiful outside, which they don't know is bad inside.

I am not saying this even if i am a stick to one guy but it is because i felt couples these days want to be treated a virgin even if they are not. Look at Hollywood. Few relationships ended up a happy ever after. Most of them divorce and find either new virgins or new source of money.

Let's face it. Hollywood fully embraced the norms like LGBT, adulterous affairs amd other movies that destroys morality.

When will our world be pure again and free of these impurities? Impure world means a lot of people are ready to commit mistakes to grab money or to be a virgin again. Tell me i am wrong amd i will tell you to see reality from all angles.

Šta Vera je Važno

Why faith is important this days? It is because our life is totally nothing without our faith. Many people has everything. Money, fame but they are not great persons even to everyone. I don't know why a lot of people are not attending churches or praying or even believe in God. I am not confused but enraged on those forces that are called anti-religious.

You may not read all the bible passages but you must understand what religious teaching you will receive/learn because it will define your whole life.

Changing your faith is optional or if you truly feel your faith will improve but it is on your heart how you will become a religious man. For myself, i am still waitig for that day. The day i will experience how God gave me the keys to his one true church, i will value it as irrefutable, priceless and my lifetime contract. In business, we have a short term contract. With God, it is a lifetime. With faith on our hands, nothing is impossible. 

If there is one thing i can show everyone how i would become a true Christian, it is on my actions and not just my mind. Deep down inside, my faith is what keeping me more to fight for my life and my future family.

Only God can judge me

Isus Hristos, uštedeti mene!

As my life is becoming more of a crossroads, i only pray at night but secretly. Dad knows something even if i don't want to tell him and everyone in my family. Despite the chaos ahead, i will make sure one thing. God can judge me but no human can.

It is an open secret that i am hiding my faith. I am silent as of now because in my current workplace, i am with mom and her colleagues. I am having a hard time integrating myself to them because i am not close to mom as of these days or to dad or to my other older sister. I would rather have spend time to close friends that know who i am truly, whether i am silent or a lively and goofy guy, trying to keep everyone united or at least, awake.

I always think of someone as of now. She is one year ahead of me but i don't know if i can enter her heart. I think i would not succeed but i wished to be with her as of late. She's my inspiration and God knows when i fall in love, i get too emotional. Emotional because i haven't controlled my emotions yet. If she will give my heart to me, i will give her true love much better than what i could do on others who left me.

Most people think i am GAY. Why? My fellow Filipinos see my Japanese style fashion as gay for them. For them, a Filipino guy should be clean cut, loose outfit and macho body. I don't have a macho body but what i can be at least proud of is that i have a girlish face, suited for my innocent heart with matching Japanese pretty boy outfits like red skinny jeans or black long vest and an earring on my left ear.

No matter what, only God can see my heart. And when i show who i am, it is he who would truly judge me. Not judge mental people or some stupid critic of my fashion sense. God knows how hungry i am to work hard for my future, my future orthodox Christian faith and, my future wife. +++

Moja vera, moja familija, moja budućnosti

Despite writing some entries about religion, politics, culture and others, i haven't mentioned if my future is uncertain. One thing in my heart is for sure. I will be a good father someday, teach my children true Christian values, make passionate and true love with my last girlfriend and future wife(hope so) and uphold the virtues of what God taught me through priests and teachers.

I won't even hide i thank my teachers from the high school i went through. With all the joys and pains in my life, they instilled in me what i need to be. A survivor and upholding a true Christian within me despite my imperfectness and my sinfulness.

What i will learn through my next spiritual father when i get baptized to God's original church will mean everything in my continuing process of maturity. For now, i am still immature enough to stand for my faith and my future. Despite all the challenges i am having, i hoped to inspire others that have the similar case they also have. Because every life has a story to tell. When i become a Pravoslavac, i will take the name Lazar and everyone will mention Lazar, Lazara, Lazaru and any additives.

I hoped that one of my male sons will be named Srđan, the name of the Bosnian Serb hero named Srđan Aleksić who sacrificed his life for his Bosniak friend's life, like how i wanted to teach my children human compassion. And whether i will stay here in Japan or marry a Serb and become a naturalized Serbian citizen, i will accept what responsibility God will give me in the future.

My faith

As many of you know, i am still Roman catholic. But i desire to be an Eastern Orthodox Christian. What brings me to that faith is something unsual. It doesn't even concern my current views, making myself a proponent of Christian unity only through the Eastern Orthodox Patriarchs.

When i was around grade school, i am reading some almanacs around the letter B. And then some pages were torn or couldn't be recognized by my young eyes. Yet, i came to the page were the Byzantine Empire section was located. It enchanted me when i saw icons of Christ, religious relics, icons and of course, the downfall of Constantinople. It made me become curious more about Christianity. During a holy week, i asked dad what is Eastern orthodox church and he anwsered: ''just another false church''. Yet, i was hungry for the truth. These time, in High School, i am reading something about the byzantine Empire and Greek history. I stumbled upon that faith that made me curious and search for what is the origin of Christianity. Since that day, i wanted to know it till i saw that church was just 30 minutes away from home via a jeep and another 5 minutes for a motorcycle ride. As i went there, i saw that church i longed for, went inside and asked questions amongst the two priests(one returned to Greece) and i felt my faith got revived. When i returned home, i told my older sisters i want to be an Orthodox. It met strong criticism from my family clan(Garcia's of Paranaque descending from Spanish-Filipino through my paternal grandfather and Japanese through my paternal grandmother) especially from my parents when they were able to talk to me via yahoo messenger. Since that day, dad cannot forgive me because he is a strong Roman Catholic and most Filipino Roman catholics think that any Christian sect outside of RC and Mainstream Protestantism is like a cult or nonsense. Since i am optimistic those days, i had many icons blessed, a priest gave me prayer books and he taught me good things and told me to be careful of other things that is why i am aware even on my own family. Yet, when i went to Japan and left my icons and other church paraphernalia there, i thought my faith would get stagnated and if my parents would have a vacation, the will dispose my holy icons of Lazar, Isus Hristos, Bogorodice(Bogorodica Ljeviška) and some incense which they did. Since that day, i am secretive if my plans to pursue what God wants for me to discover.

Currently, i am attending divine liturgies, vespers, matins, complines or simply going there and praying to God for forgiveness and help for my future challenges. I know it will not be a secret one day but when i get that freedom, i will practice my faith to the fullest. I assure everyone.