This is CONFUSING

I thought it was the right time to move on. I thought she would not mail and apologize to me. I thought everything was OVER. And then out of nowhere, she mailed me and my whole life became more confused because i wasn't prepared for this.

Confusing is the fact that she mailed me a lot of times goodbye and other hurtful things.

Is it really that easy to forgive? I admit i have feelings for her but i cannot forgive that she aborted the baby. It is just i have this feeling that no woman wants to have a relationship with me and i have this feeling of she is my soulmate no matter what happens today, sounds confusing?

See, I am a guy that is week in women or in true sincerity. I may have to see if she is very sincere now because it is hard to instill values on someone's prideful head this and that without forcing the person to do it. It's hard and i will not force anything unlike before.

When she apologized, it was like sincere and she even sent me a picture of me and her. And she missed my body, since she feels it is very warm and she feels love everytime I am near her.

It makes me think that Love moves in a mysterious way. Or God has some plans for me and her more than what happened in the past few months.

Blame Game

Remember the airplane crash that killed everyone on board especially Polish President Lech Kaczynski and his beaten up body found it's way in Bestgore and other sites? Reading is my obvious weapon against ignorance, so when i found this recently in B92 Engleski, do you have to blame the Russians for his accidental death? 

Regional prosecutor Colonel Ireneusz Szelag said that Polish military investigators have asked their Russian counterparts to facilitate questioning of the controllers who were communicating with the presidential plane as it attempted to land in poor visibility at a rudimentary airport in Smolensk on April 10, 2010, AP said.

Szelag said that one of the controllers was charged with direct responsibility, the other with indirect responsibility, and that prosecutors "also charged some Polish officials who organized the flight and appointed the crew, which was not licensed to fly under poor visibility." 

What these investigators do is another EU blame game, which they are good at. Why would you try to cause someone's death if they your not fascists or some spies? I kee on telling everyone, blaming Russia for the late Polish president's death is one damn mistake.

To Be like Western Media?

Superman doesn't disappoint in making me laugh or making me look dumb than what he tries to tell the Serbian people. Can i tell him the Prime Minister by name? It's disappointing that politicians like him idolize the Western media, the media that attacked them during the 90's. Well, with all that said, we can't expect for a free Serbia until Vučić is not anymore the premier.

Here is what i read in B92 recently:

"The Serbian government has adopted a series of laws to strengthen the freedom and independence of the media, which was one of the priorities of this government at the time of its formation," a statement from the government press office quoted Vučić as saying.

"We will be your partners - I want this region to go forward, but we will not achieve that without freedom of the media, and that is my only objective," Mijatović said. 

Disappointing from a true free person's point of view, right?

Beong too Soft

All the time, people criticize me for being too soft. Ok, I acknowledge being soft but does it make sense when they know that i am fighting so that i can erase the "soft" label on me and they see me as doing nothing? 

People realize what you are doing only when you play the hero for everyone's sake. Only when you do a physical good.

Against the 21st Century apathy, people just can see your ignorant even if your not. See? I am still right. Giving yourself a bit of tension to learn how to fight could be the best way to shed the "soft" label than to pretend your strong. People these days may need extracurricular classes and i am guilty of it as well. No jokes but it is what i truly need if i want to survive in a brutal and unfair world of adult life.

Better Die Trying than to be Ignorant

Depressive as I am, i want to live my life, according to my principles regardless of my family or my status in society. Why can't i be happy if i only desire what is right and what is love? 

When people say it's me, they think i am weird or something and that's what they think of me. I can't do anything with that because it's their perception of me. Anyways, it's better to try than doing nothing. I will die than being ignorant all the way. If i have a personal battle against apathy, then be it. Death is part of life but if you know you don't do anything bad, then go for it.

God gives you challenges to overcome eventually. Sometimes we think he doesn't take action or he is sleeping on us. But despite it, we still have to pray for guidance and strength because we, humans will do the talking often, God is there because he will not let us down all the way.

Bombardije Godišnjica

Well, NATO destroyed a once proud country of Serbia. Being a NATO critic and pro-Serbian supporter, i wish my friends who were affected by these tragic events to live on and give their best in a much better future.

By the way, why was NATO attacking a tiny nation?

Simple. Help their Albanian terrorist friends to steal a strip of land in the Southern part, which turned out to be the Serbian Jerusalem, Kosovo, which the Kosovo Albanian terrorists wanted to get so that they can expand their Albanized lands and to merge with Turkey of course when the Balkans would be overrun by Turkish-Albanian imperialist ambitions while the world never saw the atrocities committed against the Serbian people because of a news blackout.

News Blackout? How did the rapist Bill Clinton, Javier Solana, Wesley Clark and other culprits conspired to destroy a country that neither attacked nor threatened other NATO states? To get out Monica Lewinsky off the headlines and to portray the Serbs as villains and to pretend they are saving ''refugees'' which is the wag the dog warfare these days.

May the souls of the Serbs who perished be memorialized and give us the will to protect our lives from the true enemies.

Live On!!

It's over for me again. I lost again. But it doesn't mean that i will jail myself forever in my hell. I slowly realized from my friends that moving on is the greatest thing i can do now and not hope on a person that trashed me despite my feelings still there.

I still admit i have feelings for her but the way she trashed me(argued with me, breaking me up, aborting the baby i cherished for and replacing me while making me pay an abortion debt) made me feel frustrated and time to leave her totally because i already felt she doesn't want a family and that i heard from her friends that she doesn't want me anymore.

Moving on is hard but i must do it. I want to take my close friends by mentioning their initials(GC, JY and others) and for making me realize that life still there. Now, i must focus on my faith and my family and if ever she comes back without any conditions, i will leave everything to God.

ISIS in Mindanao

ISIS surely got some of the world's extremist Islamic rebel groups. But one thing is sure. In the Philippines, not just the Abu Sayyaf but also the Bangsamoro Islamic Freedom Fighters. No wonder most Muslims in Mindanao never want a Bangsamoro entity. Look at the dark side. Would people be stupid enough to gain territory for religious purposes while ignoring the basic law? And i would ask those who support Bangsamoro Peace Process regardless if they are Christians or Muslims. Can you take being imposed a Shariah Law in your home territory and make those Bangsamoro entity as a training grounds for ISIS?!?!?!

Hell no! I will not!

If i am born to a Muslim one, i will never, ever let a Bangsamoro entity be accomplished in my home out of respect for the constitution and my civil liberties.

But when you have a crappy president by the haciendero name of Benigno Aquino III, not just selling your country's terriroty to China, America but also to the threat of the ISIS. He will not give us change but a Obama-style Cult of Personality, starting from his father, haciendera mother and the whole Cojuangco Family that never gives up the Hacienda Luisita but would sell the state's territory.

The reason i Hate the current Filipino presidency and his cronies.

Kosovo Košarkaš Dosetka

What a joke!!! FIBA recgonized the Kosovo basketball program????!?! That's crap! How come that said organization allow an invaded state to be admitted? Does FIBA know what it meant?

Being a Serbian basketball fan and a firm supporter of a Serbian Kosovo, this is unacceptable since this would ruin the beautiful game of basketball both in and out. Shame on FIBA and those who let Kosovo be the newest member.

“The admission of Kosovo to FIBA membership, despite objections from Serbia, was a logical consequence of Kosovo’s membership of the International Olympic Committee (granted in December 2014). The Basketball Association of Serbia will do everything to protect the Serbian clubs and players in the territory of Kosovo and Metohija,” the KSS said.

“We expect FIBA to take seriously our warning that matches at any level, club or international and ranging from youth to senior, should be avoided at all costs,” it said.

After Ukraine and Syria, what's next?

Intended puns which the internet is good. Facts and fiction too. Here's the thing though. What country is next? Maybe Russia. I think. Destabilization process after the assasination of a Putin critic by Western infiltrators as usual to present it on the world media as the fault of Vladimir Putin.

Syria destabilized, Ukraine at the mercy of fascists, Iraq being slowly killed by yhe ISIS, Russia is next. That's my take. If not Russia, some socialist countries that are ripe the taking.

Guess..

That's right. Cuba, Venenzuela and other Socialist countries that the US and their Western allies proclaimed as governments that had a cult of personality. Not to mention Barrack Hussein Obama's own cult of personality much worse than Stalin's brutality.

When you divert the tax system to contracting arms dealers, the economy of the world will go down surely. No joke. Detroit is bankrupt and the Ukrainian fascists and the Fake Syrian Army get tons of dollars of currencies and oils in exchange for their emotional state.

Cult of Personality

While i am recovering from my personal conflicts, i am thinking also about the cult of personality in politics. Why? It amazes me for some of them controlled a country with himself and a reign of terror while some never gained that.

A cult of personality is so simple. First, take over your homeland via any means. Second, get the people that would do your bidding. Third, tell everyone how you want to run the country. And last, make everyone have a portrait of yourself in their homes. That's simple. Right?

There are some like Leonid ''Medal-Addict'' Brezhnev who wants awards. He's unique among them.

Why not The Castros of Cuba? They never wanted to be one. But how about Saparmurat Niyazov, making himself a demi-God like making everything out of himself and the weirdest cult of personality.

Whoever are they, they seem more fishy than being evil. Yes they are evil but put it with something like spice and everything evil..

Goodbye my Baby

The waning days of February and early days of March was the lowest point of my life. Not just i lost everything but i feel more alone and unimportant. Instead of writing in my blog on those days, i feel vulnerable to depression. And i lost my baby because my girl had an abortion and broke up with me. I feel so depressed and i cried so much because she wants to give up a life she and I created because of a promise.

Since that arguments, i am so depressed that i don't want to live anymore. March 9, 2015, the last time my baby breathed until he was no more. That part of my life made me more angry at myself and i feel prone to crying very hard when i talk about it with people so close to me. As i write this article, i feel crying deep inside my heart that this is a result of my incompetence and being too idealistic while i wasn't able to protect her from the painful words of evil persons and the temporal world's insincere.

I thought it was a happy ending but it flamed out like a hot-air balloon. It is just despite her words that she doesn't love me anymore and don't talk to me, i still love her. I don't know why i still love her. It is just i am too kind to betray my feelings or too emotional to break everything.

I hope prayers for my little angel would be heard by God.

I wish that God enlightened her mind now and make her realize i never left her despite her mistakes. All i did is to love and hoped for a happy family no matter what challenge I encounter.

Every time i pray for my angel every night, i simply cry out of emotional pain and it's very hard for me to bear it.

Goodbye Masahiko, my little angel.